We hoped and prayed and spent over 100K. We’ve lost more than once at this fertility game and in many ways. For some people having a baby is as simple as a roll in the hay. For us, we had to travel to hell and back. Back…is the key word. We are back and comfortable enough to announce that our first baby A BOY! is due at the end of December. Our hearts are full and so is my uterus.
On April 12th, 2014 we finally put the pieces together and got it right. We transferred our last genetically normal frozen embryo and then traveled to Bushwick for some farm-to-table cuisine at now one of my favorite places, Northeast Kingdom. Before dinner, we took a short spring stroll full of cautious optimism and marveled at the spectacular graffiti all over the walls of Bushwick, Brooklyn. Maybe it was the local duck that I consumed or the pharmacy of drugs my fertility doctor had me on, but something magical happened and we finally made a baby that stuck around.
So, at 20 weeks pregnant and feeling some kicks, just a few days after our anatomy scan confirmed everything was still looking good, we headed back to Bushwick to take some photos of my bump in front of that fantastic graffiti to capture this exciting time, with the talented Marilliana Alvero of Stylish and Hip Kids Photography.
Now that I am feeling better and things are moving in the right direction, I feel happy to share some of my story. In the future I plan to post a bit about our struggles for anyone that is curious and hopefully help some people dealing with similar issues. I did a massive amount of research to get us to this point and I would love to share what I learned. I also think sharing our heartache is a wonderful way to connect and isn’t finding connections what it’s all about? But, then I hope to leave this all in the past and enjoy what the future will bring. We, however, are forever changed.
Surely, I would love it if I could speak of the upcoming birth of our child with just pure joy. I would love it if I didn’t have to mention that it was such a struggle for us. Or, that I am still worried at times. But, that is not our story and that is ok. Every day that I am pregnant I am grateful and every day that we get a step further from the fertility battle I fill with more hope that – yes – this is actually happening and the darkness and uncertainty is starting to fade.
What is certain is this baby boy is so very wanted and we cannot wait to meet him and love him with all our hearts.